I encourage you to watch this personal testimony from David Wood:
The story resonates with my own experience (although my own experience was nowhere near as extreme). What’s significant to me is the common theme among Christian conversions and their asymmetry with deconversion stories from atheists.
When someone becomes a Christian, what sets the stage is the following intuitive insight: There is something very wrong with me; I need to change.
When someone becomes an atheist, what sets the stage if the following intuitive insight: There is something very wrong with them; they need to be stopped.